Tag: MOTHERHOOD

THESE TWO | APRIL

THESE TWO | APRIL

Every month I have decided to pop up a post all about my two. It only seems fitting considering this is a parenting blog. It’s rare that I blog about G and H specifically. I blog about how hard I find parenting and the struggles […]

THESE TWO | FEBUARY

THESE TWO | FEBUARY

Every month I have decided to pop up a post all about my two. It only seems fitting considering this is a parenting blog. It’s rare that I blog about G and H specifically. I blog about how hard I find parenting and the struggles […]

SMELLING THE SPRING AIR | WOODLAND WALKS

SMELLING THE SPRING AIR | WOODLAND WALKS

There is nothing I love more than putting on our wellies and going for a walk in the spring time. Its the first signs that winter is finally gradually leaving us. Im not a fan of spending time in the cold, so when the temperatures start to slowly rise I am the first person to suggest a trip to the woods.

When I see the double figures on the weather apps I get a little excited. I feel happier and things look so much brighter. The smell in the air is fresher. You don’t get that stinging feeling when your enter the cold. The sound of birds is a pleasant welcome, buds start to bloom on flowers and most importantly we get those precious longer days.

This weekend we took ourselves of to the woods. We popped on our wellies and made an effort to spend quality time as a family. As we made our way through the trees, the muddy puddles and fields, we larked about enjoying each others company.

G and H fed the ducks and watched the remote controlled boats on the lake, watching them  continuously cruise up and down.  Somehow we got lost {as lost as you can get in the woods} and then we made our way back to the car full of laughter and enough mud on our boots to make a small mud pie.

Its unexpected outings that you do on a whim that actually turn out to be the best. The ones with no planning. These trips out are the less stressful and the ones you remember as spontaneous days out. After a pretty cold few weeks it was so lovely to just get out and smell the spring air

IT’S BEGINNING TO LOOK A LOT LIKE CHRISTMAS

IT’S BEGINNING TO LOOK A LOT LIKE CHRISTMAS

It has taken me two whole weeks to finally accept we are in December and that in juts a few short weeks Christmas will be upon us. Normally I am all for Christmas and excited but the past few months have been so hectic and […]

WHAT WE LOVED | NOVEMBER

WHAT WE LOVED | NOVEMBER

Its been a while since I popped up a post of “What We Loved” I am not sure why I got into a habit of forgetting, but the last few months seem to have run away with me. November was a good month. We did […]

TODAY YOU ARE EIGHT

TODAY YOU ARE EIGHT

Today you are eight. I remember the doctors handing you to daddy. I was in complete and utter shock not only from the rush of the birth and the frenzied run down to theatre but I was in denial that you were mine. All 10lb of you. I was sure there was someone else in theatre {must of been the drugs} but nope the doctors handed you over and wished you happy birthday.

Today you are one year older, how is that possible. The last eight years have flown by so fast I fell like I need a switch to stop time. Time never went this fast when I was younger. I want to savour these years and not rush time.

From the moment I held you I was mesmerised, I was in love and I was so happy that you, my beautiful girl had made me a mummy. I was taken in by you and it felt like a dream. I was bursting with pride that you were mine and I was yours.

You have given me the best job in the entire world, to care for you, look after you, guide you and hopefully teach you. Its the hardest job I have ever had. Occasionally you do tell me I am good at it. I on the other hand think I can do better. I know I can do better, but its a learning process, not only for me, but for you too.

You are the most beautiful, caring, sweetest, clever, thoughtful and loving little girl. You try your best at everything, you have your moments but you wouldn’t be you if you didn’t. You bring us joy every single day and I wouldn’t change it for the world.

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Today you are eight… Happy Birthday gorgeous girl.

 

TRICK OR TREAT, SMELL MY FEET, CAN I HAVE SOMETHING NICE TO EAT…

TRICK OR TREAT, SMELL MY FEET, CAN I HAVE SOMETHING NICE TO EAT…

When I was younger I was never allowed to go trick or treating. It didn’t bother me as I was never that into it. We used to sit in the dark with the curtains closed tricking the people that knocked, making them believe we were […]

FINDING THE CONFIDENCE TO CARRY ON

FINDING THE CONFIDENCE TO CARRY ON

I have never been that confident. I was never the outspoken type at school and if I was to walk in to a room full of people I didn’t know I would shy away to the corner and find it extremely difficult to fit in […]

THE HARDEST JOB IN THE WORLD | THE ORDINARY MOMENTS

THE HARDEST JOB IN THE WORLD | THE ORDINARY MOMENTS

If someone had told me 8 years ago that parenting would in fact be the hardest job in the world, I would of laughed in their face.. Uncontrollably.

This week I have fully accepted that parenting is in fact the hardest job in the world. This week, I have been pushed to places I have never been. I have been tested and found it hard as a parent, to stay composed and to generally be the nice guy. I found myself screaming at 8am midweek for both G and H to listen to me. I found myself screaming at them in the car to behave. I then found myself making up with my nearly 8 year old in the playground as I couldn’t leave her on a argument. {Yes I was arguing with an 8 year old}

That particular morning where I screamed {with the front door open} for the whole street to hear at 8am was by far the lowest I have felt as a parent. It felt like I had failed and I was embarrassed that I had let my guard down for all to hear. It must sound like I have no control over two children, but when one is not listening and the other is in a world of his own I get to a point where I literally want to give up. Whats worse is whilst I was out I missed a parcel and it was dropped off with a neighbour two doors down and it felt like I had my tail between my legs asking for my parcel, knowing they had heard everything that had gone on only an hour before. Oh the shame..

Don’t get me wrong, I shout quite a lot, I tell them off when they are naughty. I ask them to stop bickering, to play nicely to be kind, to share and eight times out of ten they listen. But this week I don’t know what happened. I lost it and it was like a volcano erupting. I could feel it bubbling inside me and within a nano-second I was off. It was a mixture of things, not listening, not being nice to each other and an argument over taking toys in the car on the way to school, all at 8am! It just wasn’t my morning.

Its been a hard week and as I type this I still feel embarrassed, ashamed and guilty. I can fully understand why people say parenting is the hardest job in the world. This week has just proved that too me, but in a few weeks I probably will have forgotten about this little hiccup, I will have forgotten as something will outshine this moment, something wonderful, because even though its hard, its so rewarding and there are so many great things about parenting that happen in between all these mad moments, and those moments are the ones that make parenting worthwhile, makes parenting the best job in the world.

 

I am linking up with the lovely Katie at Mummy Daddy Me for her wonderful linky The Ordinary Moments

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ONE WEEK IN | BACK TO SCHOOL

ONE WEEK IN | BACK TO SCHOOL

This time last week I was all prepared for the new school year. Uniforms ironed, lunches made, book bags packed and new school shoes out ready for there first outing wearing in. I am sat here tonight, thinking how quickly that first week went. By […]