Tag: LIFE

THESE TWO | OCTOBER

THESE TWO | OCTOBER

Every month I have decided to pop up a post all about my two. It only seems fitting considering this is a parenting blog. It’s rare that I blog about G and H specifically. I blog about how hard I find parenting and the struggles […]

THESE TWO | SEPTEMEBER

THESE TWO | SEPTEMEBER

Every month I have decided to pop up a post all about my two. It only seems fitting considering this is a parenting blog. It’s rare that I blog about G and H specifically. I blog about how hard I find parenting and the struggles […]

THE FEAR

THE FEAR

When I was younger I wasn’t afraid of much. The only things that scared me were death, Injun Joe from Tom Sawyer {he sacred me a lot, I have no idea. It didn’t help that my sister would say he was in the wardrobe at night!} and my said sisters goggly eyes in the dark. As I have got older my fears and anxieties have heightened.

I still fear death. I dwell on it far to much and end up over thinking it and then planning my funeral in my head. Bit extreme! I fear the way I am going to die. There is one fear that keeps creeping up and rearing its ugly head and I have to try my damn hardest to push it back down. That fear is caner.

Its doesn’t matter what kind of Cancer, but when you’ve been told you have it once and your at a greater chance of it coming back it does sit there at the forefront of your mind. It never goes away. The fear that it could come back is a fear in itself. This fear doesn’t help my anxiety.

The fear of a rogue mole turning scares me. The mole you least expect and the one you never get checked because you think its fine. I worry so much that after my five years are up under the hospital I find a mole and I don’t have that security blanket anymore of nurses on call and specialist consultants to hand. My biggest fear, is I pass my dodgy genes onto G and H, because you know, thats highly likely. The thought that they could potentially have to go through this because of me scares me. The thought that they could have the same kind of fear I have makes me feel physically sick.

Apparently the most common fears are demons and ghosts. You then have the fears of spiders, cockroaches, snakes, small spaces, water, heights, the list could go on. But I fear that dreaded word the dreaded C word. I fear sitting opposite the consultant and him muttering two simple words of its back. That there is now my biggest fear, not Injun bloody Joe.

 

A LITTLE UPDATE | MY MELANOMA JOURNEY

A LITTLE UPDATE | MY MELANOMA JOURNEY

Its been a while since I last updated my you all about my melanoma journey. Its been a strange few months and I just haven’t wanted to blog about it. When things get on top of me I find it quite therapeutic releasing the thoughts […]

WHAT WE LOVED | NOVEMBER

WHAT WE LOVED | NOVEMBER

Its been a while since I popped up a post of “What We Loved” I am not sure why I got into a habit of forgetting, but the last few months seem to have run away with me. November was a good month. We did […]

WHAT WE LOVED | SEPTEMBER

WHAT WE LOVED | SEPTEMBER

I am a few days late for this post {I normally like it to go up on the 1st!} I actually forgot to post last month a What We Loved post for August! The month literally just rolled into September and I got lost in the new school year! Its been a manic month. But we have loved lots and I am looking forward to sharing them with you. So without too much waffling here is what we have loved..

Mr B loved

*Completing the downstairs toilet

*Playing with the new lawn mower

*Weekends as a family

*The prospect of helping G with her WW2 homework!

*The start of Luke Cage on Netflix

*De-cluttering

Mummy Loved

*Having the plastering started

*Our Girl

*Helping H with his homework

*Cheeky drinks with friends

*The start of Autumn

G Loved

*Starting back at school and seeing all her friends

*Meeting her new teacher

*Play dates with friends

*Having a spacious bedroom to practice dancing

*Arts and Crafts

H Loved

*Starting Swimming lessons

*Jumping in at swimming

*Blaze and The Monster Machines

*Seeing his best friends

*Finding unused toys

I would love to know what have you loved this month? Leave a comment below!