Who said you can’t go to the beach in the Winter? Since we got Fleur and since we have always wanted to take her to the beach. We wanted her to be let of the lead and for her to enjoy the fresh sea air, […]
Every month I have decided to pop up a post all about my two. It only seems fitting considering this is a parenting blog. It’s rare that I blog about G and H specifically. I blog about how hard I find parenting and the struggles that come along with it, but not individually on how they are doing. I used to do updates every few months on how each were doing but I’ve decided to do it slightly different with how I go about the blog post. Monthly posts I feel will work better, and it’s a prompt for me to take more photos. Which is what I am lacking lately!
This month has flown by, it only feels like yesterday I was popping up a post about them from September! I really wish time would slow down, just so I could get a grip on whats happening and cherish those moments more. Its been a full on month.
I have to admit, some parts have been really hard. G has had nothing but trouble at school this month and we have had a few meltdowns and I’ve really struggled to process what she has been telling me. Its all been resolved but its bought quite a few tears with it. Sometimes I wish I could put both G and H in a bubble and keep them from harms way.
We are back at swimming lessons and G has improved so much. She really is doing so well and she makes me so proud. She has mastered most strokes and she has really been enjoying it. All I can ask is she attends and has fun. At the moment that’s what is happening, so it makes me a happy mummy. H has improved so much too. He managed to swim a whole width without arm bands and any kind of help. He, as was I was so impressed!
Last month I spoke about sibling rivalry and how hard I was finding it. This month it has become so much better. With a ban on technical devices in place I have seen a massive change in both G and H’s behaviour. Its amazing what a break from any kind of device does to your child. Its definitely something that has been welcomed in our house!
H has had a good month at school. He is always learning new things and is forever asking questions about things he has covered in school. He has moved up two book levels since last month, which is phenomenal. His writing is still something we need to improve on, but he is doing well and thats all I can ask of him. He is loving school and spending time with his friends.
This month has been such a wonderful month. I have really enjoyed watching both G and H grow. Its lovely to see and something I will always cherish.
Its been a while since I last updated my you all about my melanoma journey. Its been a strange few months and I just haven’t wanted to blog about it. When things get on top of me I find it quite therapeutic releasing the thoughts in my head. Its like counselling but there is no-one sitting on the couch opposite. I have bundled all my thoughts in my head and I feel like I need to get it all out.
Last time I updated I was waiting. Waiting for those dreaded results. I did mention in a post that thankfully everything came back clear. I had 3 moles removed and I was so worried that something was wrong. The sense of urgency didn’t help. The result was all all fine in the end but the whole process is nerve wracking and so stressful. I over think things and I always think the worst. Its hard not to when you’ve been in the firing line of potentially bad news.
Last month I had a plastics surgery appointment and I don’t ever work myself up half as much as I do when I have a skin cancer appointment. The appointment was running two hours behind and by the time I went in I was actually a nervous wreck! I had sat and dwelled on everything that had happened within the last year and a half and got myself in to a bit of a pickle. I still struggle even today to come to terms with it and I still get quite angry, sounds silly but thats the anxiety talking.
Apparently my original scar is healing really well. I am still having nerve damage treatment on it as its still quite painful. The treatment has dwindled and I am not going as often which is always good news as its doing the job and lasting longer each time. My consultant said that the whole scar looks great. Unfortunately my most recent operation has bought back some pain to the original site. We are going to continue with the treatment for the foreseeable.
My scar, I hate it, I hate the way it travels down the side of my neck. I still try and cover its as much as possible. Now the weather is warming up I am struggling to hide it. Its not as noticeable now but when you know its there you have this overwhelming sense that everyone knows and everyone is looking. I know its not the case, thats what my mind is telling me and its hard to tell it to stop.
My next appointment is a big one. I have no particular worries yet. I am sure I will panic like mad before hand and pick something out for my consultant to check. For now I have a bit of a break from hospitals. I will be enjoying the freedom of no doctors, no consultants and no checks..