Missing The Baby Girl…

2 weeks ago, my little girl started school.  It happened with ease and I was amazed at how well she had adjusted to life being at school.

The first 2 weeks were a settling in period. The Tuesdays she would stay all day and the rest of the days she would come home at lunch time. It was all part of the settling in process. Moo would leave full of beans. I wouldn’t actually get much out of her, apart from,

When am I going back

This was all looking very good. I had handled the process well and so had Moo. I had only sobbed into my pillow once and that was on the first day of leaving her.

So why, am I so sad? Why, 2 weeks after her starting school,  am I the one wanting her to be here with me? wishing she was at home with me? Crying at the drop of a hat. I am missing my little girl like crazy and I count down the hours till 3pm.

Yes I have Thor at home and we have fun, but she is my little girl, she is my first, and I worry about her. I worry how she copes at school and how she is doing.

Today we had a little blip, tears before school, and a new routine of saying goodbye in the playground rather than in the classroom. This was new to both of us and a little bit weird. The tears were because she didn’t want to stay at school all day, this upset me. I feel sad for her. As I said, it is a blip, but it doesn’t mean I cant be upset for her. Yes I packed her off and came home and cried, I don’t like the fact that my little girl is vulnerable. I think we have hit the wall that everyone talks about. I am hoping its just a little wall.

This is new to Moo and so new to me. Once it all settles down and we are over the first initial shock of being at school ALL day, I am sure Moo and Mummy will both have fun! But until I know Moo is happy and enjoying herself then I wont be happy. I will just have to continue being the mummy who goes home and has a little cry!

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  1. September 17, 2013 / 3:21 pm

    I can’t imagine how I will feel like so I am sending you hugs. It is such a huge transitional stage for both her and you. x

    • September 17, 2013 / 3:39 pm

      Thanks Katie, The last 2 weeks have gone really well for us both, I always knew there was going to be a “wall” that everyone talks about that we were going to hit, and going full time has taken us there.

      She seemed a lot happier coming out today, and even said I didn’t cry for you mummy! That’s going to pull on the heartstrings later!

  2. September 17, 2013 / 8:04 pm

    You poor thing – it’s only been 2 weeks though which isn’t at all long. Give yourself a bit of time and I’m sure you will both get used to the new routine. It must be amazing to pick her up and hear all about her day at 3pm though 🙂

    • September 17, 2013 / 8:11 pm

      It is lovely to see her beaming face at 3pm! I love the huge cuddle I receive 🙂

      I think once we have both adjusted to the full days, in a week or so we will both have settled into it and hopefully it will be of the norm!

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